Wednesday, February 17, 2010


Sometimes things are not funny. And sometimes days are much harder than you thought they were going to be. Sometimes you think you're fine...and then you're not. Sometimes no amount of boxed wine or sweat on the spinning bikes or shopping at Kohl's will make it any better. Sometimes you just have to spin around and face it head-on. Sometimes you have to take it like a man. Sometimes you have to feel it like a woman.

This is one of those times. Monday is my due date. In my quest to block it from my mind entirely, I've been stringing beads and creating rosaries and drowning in Olympic coverage. I haven't been blogging and sad to say, I haven't been reading your blogs, either. I miss them profusely and as soon as these pieces go in the mail tomorrow and we welcome home 5 heroes from Afghanistan, I'm back to stalking you. As a heads-up, I'm posting Shepherd's record of delivery on Monday. I feel like if I let the day pass without any mention, it would be unfair to his memory.

It has his tiny little footprints on it.

Monday is not for the faint-of-heart.

You've been warned.

Until then, please enjoy a rosary I created for Deborah's Place, an organization that provides transitional and permanent housing to homeless women in the Chicago area. It will be auctioned off in a few weeks with all proceeds benefiting Deborah's Place.

Photo Credit: Tinny Anna Photography
And to the 3 women who've deleted their blogs in the past month...I miss you like John Edwards' mistress missed her period. I understand it...but it still sucks.

I'll be back in full blogging form after the 22nd. Sometimes work is all that will save you. And love. But love won't wear my pendant necklaces to Kroger. He said they draw too much attention to his chest hair. So, I'll work and sell and watch Americans in funny pants skatebump their way down a big hill. And I'll be reading you. So, don't talk about me.


  1. Awww, Allyson. You take all the time you need and now that we will be here when you are ready. I wish there was more I could say but no words I could say will make the 22nd any easier.

    I am looking forward to your special post about your special boy. xoxox

  2. i am keeping you in my thoughts and prayers, and can't wait until you are back in full force, but totally understand. sometimes you just need time.
    i will be here on monday, supporting you!
    ((virtual hugs))

  3. Take good care of yourself, and do what you need to honor your precious boy.

  4. All the best Allyson. We are here for you.

    And that is a beautiful rosary. You are extremely talented.

  5. Yes we have missed you but take all the time you need. We'll be here when you get back. The Rosary is lovely!

  6. Oh sweetie.... :( My heart breaks for you when I read these posts. Like the others said, take all the time you need. Losing a child is like losing a piece of your soul you can never get back. I so hope you can find some peace over the next dew days and weeks. I'm looking forward to reading about your boy on Monday. I'll come prepared with Puffs Plus. Also, that rosary is beautiful. I'm not Catholic but I love the idea of prayer beads. And I love that you're helping the women in Chicago. That city will always hold a piece of my heart. Glad to have you back! I missed you!

  7. Hey all my love and prayers for you all weekend long.

    I'm extremely sad you'll be reading my blog when you're away because I was really hoping to trash talk you all weekend long.

    I check your blog for updates like an anorexic checks her weight. I'm already looking forward to you coming back. stay strong, girl. xoxox

  8. Allyson, big tears for you. I'm new to this blog so I didn't know what you went through, but boy am I sending every positive though I have your way and some prayers, too. How heartbreaking, I can't even imagine.

    But we're here for you, your bloggy friends love you like a fat kid loves cake (continuing on Kiera's inappropriate metaphors). We'll be waiting patiently and ready to welcome you back with big virtual hugs and comments.

  9. Aww, you take all the time you need. My prayers are with you on Monday and yes we all look forward to you coming back! Blanche, Rose & Dorthy said they are willing to share some of their cheesecake :)

  10. As you know, I'm pretty new here and I had no idea what you went through. I just went back and re-read some of your older posts and I shed a tear or two for you and your little angel. You will all definitely be in my thoughts and prayers this weekend.

    I love your's so beautiful.

    I'll be stopping by and checking for updates and here to offer whatever support I can.

  11. Oh girl, I just wish I could give you a big ole HUG right now. Know that we're all here for you... to listen when you need us to. I really look forward to learning a little bit more about your sweet boy. And, like Kallay, will come armed with tissues.


  12. my thoughts and prayers are with you and I'm here for you girlie. I will be back on monday as well. I really love how you stated this: Sometimes you have to take it like a man. Sometimes you have to feel it like a woman. It's so true and well put.

    *HUGE HUGS* I'll be thinking of you. oxox

  13. If I ever talked about you, it would only be the most wonderful things. :)
    I was wondering where you were and have missed you a metric ton. I'm definitely thinking of you and if you need anything at all, don't hesitate to ask. I'm never too busy to lend an ear (or a...typing hand).

  14. ((hugs)) Sending prayers your you!

  15. Will be thinking of you. Your Rosary is beautiful!

  16. I think that rosary is not only gorgeous but such a thoughtful, lovely thing to create for such a worthy organization.

    I can't wait to hear all about the new little nugget! And honestly, the more graphic the better. I hate when women say things like, "And I barely remember the pain! It was like an angel kissed me and then she was born!" Ugh.

    I'll be thinking about you!

  17. ... and I was so gonna write a post about you aswell!!!

    You take care Misses :0)

  18. We all understand your need to have a little time. I love that rosary. I made one very similar to it a few years ago.
    And loved your comment about John's mistress:)

  19. thinking and praying for you!!

    okay, and that john edwards' mistress comment killlled me. you are hysterical even when being "serious." :) love it.

    lots and lots of hugs!!!!!!!


  20. hugs and all the support in the world. you are amazing and strong. My family has been through this before, so I have some sort of idea how hard it must be.


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